Birthdays are a funny sort. They are celebrated when we are young and dreaded as we get older. I never shy away from celebrating the birth of my friends and family, but when it came to my own I am less excited. I prefer behind the scenes to the spotlight and don’t want people to fuss over me. When my oldest overheard me say that today was just another day, she stopped me and said..
“no, it’s special because you’re special Mommy”.
After a few tears at how incredibly intelligent and intuitive that she is, I realized she is right and I need to be her example. I am special because of the love of my family and my friends and I am worth celebrating, as is she and her sister and their patient, amazing Daddy. So today I am celebrating being another year older, a little less wiser and even more grateful.
A little less wiser
Each year I realize I know less than I thought I did the year before. Life’s funny that way. When you’re younger you think you have all the answers, but as you grow and experience life you realize you have so much more to learn. I learn something new everyday through missteps, failed attempts and the joy and wonder of my children. I’ve learned the beauty of seeing things through your children’s eyes and the sorrow that comes as they grow a little older and more independent. I learn everyday that I cannot control everything and that I wouldn’t really want to as the spontaneity of life is the most valuable. I’m keeping my heart and my arms open to new and unexpected experiences.
Even more grateful
Everyday I am learning to be more present and enjoy my surroundings. Am I tired? Sure. Do I miss girls nights? Of course. Would I like to travel more? Absolutely. But when I look into the smiling eyes of my two beautiful babes and handsome hubby, I know that I am beyond blessed and wouldn’t change a single thing. Life’s an adventure and I am learning to enjoy the ride.
Thank you for all the birthday wishes, texts, messages and calls. You all make the day even more special!
